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Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Tue, 26 Dec 2006 15:45:47 GMT

...wOw i hadn't written in a HOT minute lol. its interesting when I go back and read how I was before hehehehe

well, im not supposed to be up this late considering the fact that it's 1:43 AM. (oh snap, i gotta call Brian). and yes, Brian and I are still an item haha. we just had our 1-Year anni last month. which is nuts. but yes, we did.

i finished up my writings for college apps and I'm pretty much ready to get them out. Thanks to Miz Yvette, I am having them checked. (Love that woman.)

...now that I have to call Brian, I don't think I can quite spend much time on here so...

TATA~!!!

xoxo mOnique

Thursday, June 29, 2006

Thu, 29 Jun 2006 04:15:54 GMT

DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANG.

i havent written in a LOOng ass time lol. well....ALOOOOOOT has happened. its kinda difficult to go back and explain all. but, all i can say is...

I'M A SENIOR~~~~~~~~!!! woot, woot. i'm a G. we all know that.

- the KHS Show Choir is tha bizzOmb fO real (lol cant believe st.mary's wud like to perform w/us)

- im actually going to be Show Choir President of C/O 07...too sexy(this is REALLY my dream come true)

-Brian and I are doing TOO good...(7 months...8months in a week...)w/sum bumps along the way bt thats what happens you know? (he just mailed me) well reach our one year very shortly...and things...WILL HAPPEN.

-alotta dark stuff went on in the year bt hopefully ppl are comin back frm the dark side lol

- im going out tonight lol. hehehehehe

-im studying for my sexier SAT scores...AP Calc..gettin ready for AP Music Theory.. settin up show choir... thinkin of my vice presidency in drama...hope to spend more time with fam

yeah..good times roll by fast! we'll i gotsta go out! hoep to write soon~

-mOnique<333

Friday, December 23, 2005

Fri, 23 Dec 2005 01:16:32 GMT

HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~~~~.

hahahahahahahahahhaha. yes. yes. YES. Monique H. Rose is BACK.

long time no write, peoples. ALOT has gone on. wOw wOw WOW. lol

okay, lemme back track to...

SEPTEMBER...umm...miko and i were fuh-reakin bored cuz nothing "interesting" was happening, haha. bored mofos. I started taking private lessons with the awesome maestro Yasuda (go tenors, yee-uh.) lemme tell you this man is the ISH, yall. he's my savior! and...miko and i had are tiny crush on a pretty lil sophomore (whatever happened to our old-ifile ness, LOL) umm....show choir auditions, FREAKIN AWESOME we got alotta TALENTED ppl. i was embarassed that i was already in it without competing against these people, hahaha. started to miss the seniors~~!!i was goin all out about getting ready for Solo/Ensemble, giving people lessons, choosing pieces for them, helping them with it and the honor choir audition pieces...yup. started Sparky's Gang stuff, coo. i WANTED to do cheer but gregory wouldn't let me cuz he said i have too much goin on~ grrr...but he could be right hehe. sang a crap load of anthems(US and Japan) everywhere, lol. thats how we DO.

OCTOBER...we(or atleast I was) going crazy about Solo/Ensemble. yea, imma FREAK. lol. i was just very excited! haha i wanted to do a duet with trauf again, but i couldn't find a good enough one so i attempted to do a trio with arvie "Benedictus" but that failed cuz we already had a trio with alana instead of arvie "She Sings". we were working REALLY hard, the whole show choir and Marshall. OH GOD, MARSHALL. lord, he is SOOo GOOD that he makes me laugh everytime he sings. im just like..why are you here? lol.

Mr.Ulmer (aka gregory): "okay, Basses, your part."

Marshall: "(walking down the aisle, said in nice english accent)WHERE AT?"

hahahahaha, good times, good times. we had 15 songs for solo/ensemble.

oooooh, i tried out for Dance Team and we didnt have that many people cuz of the Step Team incident and they liked me so i was there having the time of my life, but then we kinda dissolved before homecoming.

OOOOOOoooh, at the end of this month like a week before Homecoming, i realized i liked brian (again, old-ifile mOnique falls for another sophie) but he was taken (as usual with every person im soOo into,lol) so i tried to kinda put those feelings away but i realized that the more i tried, the more i kinda..yea. in fact, when i first found out he was taken and i felt empty, was when i realized.but i was completely for his relationship w/the other so i didnt do anything. little did i know...yea hehehe *blush*. I was asked to homecoming by Woody and left in the middle of it to go to karaoke with miko, brian, and rob. GOOD TIMES, lol.

NOVEMBER...the BIG month. the fall play Dracula (awesOme.)went on and there was our Sparky's Gang debut at the dinner night show...and then, brian and i got together. lol. and then...Solo/Ensemble @CAJ! oooohhhh~~ YOU GUYS. KINNICK kicked sum SERIOUS ARSE this year, lol. oooh. okay, we put up 15 songs and 8 won golds, 4 silvers, and 3 bronzes. thats great man! lol my mother knows whats best for me so she's not the kind of person to praise me that often (you know japanese mothers, lol) but alana, trauf, and I's "She Sings" made her cry. actually, her, ms.woody, and alana's mother cried too LOL. and when we won that gold for that whooo, we were just crazy. oh my lord, and the guys did AWESOME. brian, marshall, and woody's trio "Say, Love" got gold and got to perform in the encore recital<3. and then, trauf and i did do a duet "Laudamus Te", and we got a gold for that and performed in the encore recital too. and ofcourse Marshall and his crazy self performed his solo "O Du Mein Holder Abenstern" at the encore recital too, lol. we were just in AWE. we couldn't believe it. i mean we worked HARD, but dAng! lol

i was just freakin bothered that my solo did NOT go well. aaagghh. i sang "O Del Mio Dolce Ardor" by Gluck and i know i could have done sO much better. i think i was too tense. i won a gold and im thankful but i won a gold for Habanera last year too and i had the same exact number of points as last year :(. so yea...my mother came up to me after it and she said just do your best for the duet next. which went well :).

ooooooOoh and the BIG ONE. we got 6 people in Honor Choir. YES. i was sO freakin happy. all that time we spent recording and my tme at night editing everyone's MDs making sure we've got the best we can do...my hard work paid off. i was actually afraid of my recording cuz it was crappy. lol. i went through some serious prayer for that one. and yay~ im not alone from kinnick, let alone dodds this year lol. kinnick again, is the only dodds school that got people in honor choir this year. i am so glad that i get to share that same power i felt when i made it my freshman year in the ISSH practice room with my friends that have a strong passion for music like i do. can't wait for the music to come.

DECEMBER...i became wrestling manager along with chels, miko, and karissa. such FUN! those fools are my girls man. too bad i missed the Misawa-Edgren trip cuz of the piano recital and the japanese language proficiency test. the wrestlers and the managers still rub that in my face! WHATEVER. i aced that test anyway! hahahaha ED. we had a lil fun at your house the day before, and we sho EFFED UP the next day, hahaha. lol so far the trips to ASIJ and Yokota were fun. oh, and Far East Drama stuff started. gotta keep with my individual events, man. and brian and i have had our one-month and are doing great. we've had small ups and downs but things are awesome. alotta people come up to me to tell me he REALLY likes me lol. and he tells me all the time too. ALL THE TIME. lol he is my very first boyfriend so i feel new at these things but we were already great friends so yea...*blush* he's a great person and i feel blessed to be with him : ) .

*sigh* that's alot. haha just had to let that all out. aahh~ im gonna be 17 next month. that's soO soon. OH LORD, my age of16 year was CRAZY. hahaha one of the greatest years of my life, im sure. and the one coming up will be great too!

My classes for this year are English 11 (wish, i still took AP lang :( bt its too much), US History, Health, Math Analysis, AP Chem(crazy class, hahaha), English 9 (need that credit!), Show Choir.

My wonderful responsibilities: Choir/ Show Choir Vice President, Sparky's Gang member, Wrestling Team manager, Thespian, Oldest sibling, Interpreter for a hair salon...yea...there's probably more but whatever~

i hope everyone's having a great break.

MERRY CHRISTMAS~ and an early AKE-OME~ : )

mOnique xoxo

Sunday, August 21, 2005

Sun, 21 Aug 2005 14:30:20 GMT

....!!!

I am about to seriously TURN IT OUT.

Saturday, July 23, 2005

Sat, 23 Jul 2005 12:06:15 GMT

hello, i always wanted to do this, hehe. well, i listed the songs that represent and survived with in the school year of 04-05. some of these make me go "aah~ good times" and some are just too painful to listen to.

Monique's Songs of the Great School Year of 04-05

Homecoming 04 (NOV)

1. Hey Ya! / Andre 3000

KPASSP Solo/Ensemble Festival 04(NOV)

1. Flower Duet / Charlotte Church - Me & Jessica T

2. Prayer of St. Francis of Assisi / St. Mary's Varisty Ensemble

3. Non Piu Andrai / Joseph Ban

4. Excelsis Laudate! / CAJ Women Ensemble

Winter Concert rehearsals (DEC)

1. Sleigh Ride / Show Choir

2. Home for the Holidays / ""

3. Santa's Frosty Follies / ""

4. Grown-up Christmas List / ""

Winter Break - riceballs. (JAN)

1. Overdrive / Katy Rose

2. Sugar / System Of A Down

3. Original Skin / Katy Rose

4. Baby Boy feat. Sean Paul / Beyonce

5. Who's To Say / Vanessa Carlton

6. Annie / ""

7. C'est La Vie / ""

The Great Depression Part 1 to Nikko (end of JAN)

1. Lemon / Katy Rose

2. Glow / ""

3. Because I Can / ""

Far East S & D Rehearsal (early FEB)

1. Dreaming Of You / Selena

2. Como La Flor / ""

3. Suck My Kiss / Red Hot Chili Peppers

Far East Speech & Drama Festival 04 (FEB)

1. Black Tee / Crime Mob

2. Okay feat. Lil John & Youngbloodz / Nivea

3. Rich Girl feat. Eve/ Gwen Stefani

4. Move Ya Body feat. Jabba / Nina Sky

5. Blueberry Yum Yum / Ludacris

6. Go DJ / Lil Wayne

The Great Depression Part 2 - back from Far East (late FEB)

1. Californication / Red Hot Chili Peppers

2. Scar Tissue / ""

3. Road Trippin' / ""

4. She Floats / Vanessa Carlton

5. The Wreckage / ""

KPASSP Choral Festival / Honor Choir Concert 05(early MAR)

1. Salve Regina / KPASSP Honor Choir 2005

2. Heart We Will Forget Him / ""

3. The May Night / ""

4. Shout Glory! / KPAASP Choirs Unite

The Great Depression Part 3 - during the musical (MAR)

1. My All / Mariah Carey

2. Breakdown / Mariah Carey

3. ‘åä•vAŽ„‚Í( from "All In") / Yarz

Sound Of Music productions (late MAR - APR)

1. Nun's Processional / Janelle, Alana, Eonna, Desos, and Jaimie as nuns

2. The Sound Of Music / Jess T as Maria

3. Do - Re- Mi / the kids (including me) as Von Trapp children & Jess T

4. Lonely Goatheard / ""

5. Sixteen Going On Seventeen / Joey as Rolf & Me as Liesl

6. My Favorite Things / the kids as Von Trapps & Jess T

7. So Long, Farewell / the Von Trapp Family

The Great Depression Part 4 (APR)

1. Seguidilla (from Carmen) / Maria Callas

2. Un Bel Di Vedremo (from Madama Butterfly) / Maria Callas

3. Mi Chiamano Mimi (from La Boheme) / Maria Callas

FE Honor Music Festival & The Great Heartache (late APR)

1. Hallelujah / Far East Honor Choir 05

2. Portones Abiertos y Rostros Brillantes / ""

3. Organ Fugue / "" - The Swingle Singers

4. To Where You Are / ""

5. Obsession (No Es Amor) feat. Baby Bash / Frankie J

Lasting Heartache & Good times (MAY -JUN)

1. We Belong Together / Mariah Carey

2. (that "What it is hoe? wussup? song) / Lil Scrappy

3. Bring 'Em Out / T.I.

4. Kanye's Workout Plan / Kanye West

5. I Like That / Chingy

6. 1 Thing / Amerie

7. Bridge Over Troubled Water / KHS Choir

8. September / Show Choir Band - Earth, Wind & Fire

I hope to have another great year with everyone. All the times I went through, good and bad, make me the person I am today.

good quote from Lyra777's xanga,

"Don' cry because it's over, Smile cause it happened"

btw, the new System Of A Down CDs the BEST.

they just get better and better dont they?

Thursday, July 14, 2005

Thu, 14 Jul 2005 12:30:43 GMT

hey all, i just wanted to say that despite what i USED TO say, i really like my myspace (NO, im not gonna say im gonna stop my xanga) but im going to keep my xanga for deeper thoughts and memories for myself to look at in the future and my myspace for making/finding friends! i also started a photo album just to keep track of the limited time of highschool i have and the memories i have :)

http://www.angelfire.com/magic2/lethal-stare/moniqes_pix/

i spelled my own name wrong. IDIOT me, haha

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

Tue, 12 Jul 2005 09:12:52 GMT

LOL , this is funny.

THE YOUNG PERSON'S GUIDETO THE CHORUS
In any chorus, there are four voice parts: soprano, alto, tenor, and bass.
Sometimes these are divided into first and second within each part,
prompting endless jokes about first and second basses. There are also
various other parts such as baritone, countertenor, contralto, mezzo
soprano, etc., but these are mostly used by people who are either soloists,
or belong to some excessively hotshot classical a cappella group (this
applies especially to countertenors), or are trying to make excuses for not
really fitting into any of the regular voice parts, so we will ignore them
for now.
Each voice part sings in a different range, and each one has a very
different personality. You may ask, "Why should singing different notes ake
people act differently?", and indeed this is a mysterious question and has
not been adequately studied, especially since scientists who study musicians tend to be musicians themselves and have all the peculiar complxes that go with being tenors, french horn players, timpanists, or whatever. However,this is beside the point; the fact remains that the four voice parts can be easily distinguished, and I will now explain how

THE SOPRANOS are the ones who sing the highest, and because of this they think they rule the world. They have longer hair, fancier jewellery, and swishier skirts than anyone else, and they consider themselves insulted if they are not allowed to go at least to a high F in every movement of any given piece. When they reach the high notes, they hold them for at least half again as long as the composer and/or conductor requires, and then complain that their throats are killing them and that the composer and conductor are sadists. Sopranos have varied attitudes toward the other sections of the chorus, though they consider all of them inferior. Altos are to sopranos rather like second violins to first violins - nice to harmonise with, but not really necessary. All sopranos have a secret feeling that the altos could drop out and the piece would sound essentially the same, and they don't understand why anybody would sing in that range in the first place - it's so boring. Tenors, on the other hand, can be very nice to have around; besides their flirtation possibilities (it is a well-known fact that sopranos never flirt with basses), sopranos like to sing duets with tenors because all the tenors are doing is working very hard to sing in a low-to-medium soprano range, while the sopranos are up there in the stratosphere showing off. To sopranos, basses are the scum of the earth - they sing too damn loud, are useless to tune because they're down in that low, low range - and there has to be something wrong with anyone who sings in the F clef, anyway.

THE ALTOS are the salt of the earth - in their opinion, at least. Altos are
unassuming people, who would wear jeans to concerts if they were llowed to.Altos are in a unique position in the chorus in that they are unable to
complain about having to sing either very high or very low, and they know
that all the other sections think their parts are pitifully easy. But the
altos know otherwise. They know that while the sopranos are screeching way on a high A, they are being forced to sing elaborate passages full of harps and flats and tricks of rhythm, and nobody is noticing because the sopranos are singing too loud (and the basses usually are too). Altos get a deep,secret pleasure out of conspiring together to tune the sopranos flat. Altos have an innate distrust of tenors, because the tenors sing in almost the same range and think they sound better. They like the basses, and enjoy singing duets with them - the basses just sound like a rumble anyway, and it's the only time the altos can really be heard. Altos' other complaint is that there are always too many of them and so they never get to sing really loud.

THE TENORS are spoiled. That's all there is to it. For one thing, there are
never enough of them, and choir directors would rather sell their souls than
let a halfway decent tenor quit, while they're always ready to unload a few
altos at half price. And then, for some reason, the few tenors are always
really good - it's one of those annoying facts of life. So it's no wonder
that tenors always get swollen heads - after all, who else can make sopranos swoon? The one thing that can make tenors insecure is the accusation (usually by the basses) that anyone singing that high couldn't possibly be a real man.. In their usual perverse fashion, the tenors never acknowledge this, but just complain louder about the composer being a sadist and making them sing so damn high. Tenors have a love-hate relationship with the conductor, too, because the conductor is always telling them to sing louder because there are so few of them. No conductor in recorded history has ever asked for less tenor in a forte passage. Tenors feel threatened in some way by all the other sections - the sopranos because they can hit those incredibly high notes; the altos because they have no trouble singing the notes the tenors kill themselves for; and the basses because, although they can't sing anything above an E, they sing it loud enough to drown the tenors out. Of course, the tenors would rather die than admit any of this. It is a little-known fact that tenors move their eyebrows more than anyone else while singing.

THE BASSES sing the lowest of anybody. This basically explains everything.
They are stolid, dependable people, and have more facial hair than anybody else. The basses feel perpetually unappreciated, but they have a deep
conviction that they are actually the most important part (a view endorsed
by musicologists, but certainly not by sopranos or tenors), despite the fact
that they have the most boring part of anybody and often sing the same
note(or in endless fifths) for an entire page. They compensate for this by
singing as loudly as they can get away with - most basses are tuba players
at heart. Basses are the only section that can regularly complain about how
low their part is, and they make horrible faces when trying to hit very low
notes. Basses are charitable people, but their charity does not extend so
far as tenors, whom they consider effete poseurs. Basses hate tuning the
tenors more than almost anything else. Basses like altos - except when they
have duets and the altos get the good part. As for the sopranos, they are
simply in an alternate universe which the basses don't understand at all.
They can't imagine why anybody would ever want to sing that high and sound
that bad when they make mistakes. When a bass makes a mistake, the other
three parts will cover him, and he can continue on his merry way, knowing
that sometime, somehow, he will end.

Top Ten Reasons for Being a Soprano
1. The rest of the choir exists just to make you look good.
2. You can entertain your friends by breaking their wineglasses.
3. Can you name an opera where an alto got the man?
4. When sopranos want to sing in the shower, they know the tune.
5. It's not like you are ever going to sing the alto part by accident.
6. Great costumes - like the hat with the horns on it.
7. How many world famous altos can you name?
8. When the fat lady sings, she's usually singing soprano.
9. When you get tired of singing the tune, you can sing the descant.
10. You can sing along with Michael Jackson.

Top Ten Reasons for Being an Alto
1. You get really good at singing E flat.
2. You get to sing the same note for 12 consecutive measures.
3. You don't really need to warm up to sing 12 consecutive bars of E-flat.
4. If the choir really stinks, it's unlikely the altos will be blamed.
5. You have lots of time to chat during soprano solos.
6. You get to pretend that you are better than the sopranos, because
everybody knows that women only sing soprano so they don't have to learn to read music.
7. You can sometimes find part time work singing tenor.
8. Altos get all the great intervals.
9. When the sopranos are holding some outrageously high note at the end of a song, the altos always get the last words.
10. When the altos miss a note, nobody gets hurt.

Top Ten Reasons for Being a Tenor
1. Tenors get high - without drugs.
2. Name a musical where the bass got the girl.
3. You can show the sopranos how it SHOULD be sung.
4. Did you ever hear of anyone paying $1000 for a ticket to see 'The three
Basses?'
5. Who needs brains when you've got resonance?
6. Tenors never have to waste time looking through the self-improvement
section of the bookstore.
7. You get to sing along with John Denver singing "Aye Calypso."
8. When you get really good at falsetto, you can make tons of money oing
voice-overs for cartoon characters.
9. Gregorian chant was practically invented for tenors. Nobody invented a
genre for basses.
10. You can entertain your friends by impersonating Julia Child.

Top Ten Reasons for Being a Bass
1. You don't have to tighten your shorts to reach your note.
2. You don't have to worry about a woman stealing your job.
3. Or a preadolescent boy stealing your job.
4. Action heroes are always basses. That is - if they ever sang, they would sing bass.
5. You get great memorable lyrics like bop, bop, bop, bop.
6. If the singing job doesn't work out, there's always broadcasting.
7. You never need to learn to read the treble clef.
8. If you get a cold, so what.
9. For fun, you can sing at the bottom of your range and fool people into
thinking there's an earthquake.
10. If you belch while you're singing, the audience just thinks it is part
of the score.

http://www.vc.org.sg/forums/viewtopic.php?t=1855

hahahahahaha.

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

Wed, 06 Jul 2005 04:13:07 GMT

aaaghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~JANEHHHHHLE!!! i miss you~~~~~!!!!

monique misses janelle.

haha ok, it hasnt been a long time yet, but im writing anyway cuz miyoko reminded me of one thing i didnt mention last entry and this subject is importante and i cant believe i forgot to mention.

COLLEGE.

yup, that one most important thing i forgot. this has been on my mind forever... well ever since...i dont remember, haha. Im still looking around and i really didnt want to post the places i want to go but screw it, im gonna put it up here. well, my first choice at the moment, is Indiana University: Bloomington. The place has a wonderful music department and students seem happy there. It had the majors that I want to take part in which is not only music, i wish i could triple major, lol. The campus is pretty too. umm...others that i liked were Boston University, Syracuse University, NYU(yes, miyoko, haha), umm...Florida International University, Carnegie Mellon University....yea i dont remember other ones but i liked these. umm...my GPA for all my highschool credits wasnt killed (meaning <3.5) so im not TOTALLY freaking out but yea, i need to raise that shizznit above 4.0, haha( with AP, it is possible lol) reach for the stars mofo~~!! haha ok, all this food im eating is getting to my brain. Japan needs to stop feeding me good food. or is it that friends *cough* nelle and jess *cough* arent supposed to take me out? i <3 food. sO yes, hopefully jess and i will go to the same colleges for we decided we cannot live without eachother, hehe. i sound like a lesbian. *GASP* what am i going to do senior year when jess has moved (that is, after she is discovered hiding in the music library along with 3-Part music and found with alot of Subway rappers)? i guess ill have to take it, itll onle be a year w/o her anyway...thats so long.

i cannot believe im not leaving home today. o wait, i can with this stupid weather. goddang, it keeps raining and all cloudy, i cannot stand this mess!! i was supposed to go swimming with miko and cruz and i had my swimsuit and towel all ready. grr....yokosuka is not meant to be cloudy~~~especially here in mabori~~!! nO, the palm trees look sad too :( . okay, as soon as it gets sunny i am goin out to enoshima w/buddies and soak up the sunshine and search for hot surfers, YES.

GET SUNNY DAMMIT!!!

gosh. when the sun comes out, imma follow what janelle and her earrings that she gave me, told me to do throughout my highschool years.

i will....... " GET WIT IT."

Friday, July 01, 2005

Fri, 01 Jul 2005 04:23:58 GMT

oh my lord,(haha, again). i havent written on this thing in a lOOOOOOoooooOOng time!! so much has happened since the last time i wrote. i was always thinking, im gonna write about this and that but i never got to. i was hella busy!! dude, so much music(which i could nvr get enough of), some drama(that i avoid but some how get dragged into), tears( i love you Class of '05!!!!!), and hot ppl back in yoko for the summer.*drool*

what should i start with? well, the relationship that nelle and i have can never be broken by anything. in such little time, we became sO close. im her "black"sister and imouto and she is my ahte, haha. in i think only 3 months, we became so close like real siblings in a rate that has never happened before. its kinda sad she's moving on in life from the PSD in 2 days and i mite not see her for while, for she is an '05-er. i say kinda, because im glad that she is moving on in life and that she will meet new people and opportunities. that's why i won't cry when she leaves, even though she prbly will and ill end up doing so too. in fact, im supposed to call her right now but im afraid shes gonna tell me to leave my house right now, but its raining like a biatch so im not going to yet, hehe.

GRADUATION '05

That was the first time i went to a graduation and well, sang in the Yokosuka Art's Theatre (which I ALWAYS wanted to do, soOo very much - - that beautiful hall). There was a lil drama goin on with the usual person that was driving me to choke somebody, and that plus the feeling of good friends moving on in life, made me cry during "To Where You Are" rehearsal. I felt so stupid for that, and gregory got mad at me too. I was the one that said we can't cry during the song cuz itll mess up the good music too. Oooh, and for the real thing, Kimigayo felt so good to sing in the silence of that big opera house-looking theatre with the balconies w/so many ppl in it, omg it was insane. It's really weird singing all by myself so loud in a place full of ppl. I know what the lyrics mean now, so i was able to sing it with feeling. actually, while i was singing, i heard a back up accompaniment to my voice -- in my head. it was weird. i guess i got so into it, that i forgot that i was singing and when i realized that i was singing i heard music on the background of my singing in my head. it was like a miracle. I cried when ppl got their diplomas, like janelle, kamille, ilka, anna, gina , and so many others. jess started bawling when her sister got hers because she didnt want her sister to leave her and we hugged for a long time and she made me cry even more. o great, right befor e "To Where You Are" too, haha. To Where You Are was okay, i think it was ugly cuz i was still trying to recover from the crying so my solo was out-of-control. overall, i think graduation was a big success.

GRADUATION PARTIES

woooooooooh. dang, that was a lotta partying. so much party hopping, some drama (as usual), and pansit!! im crazy for cake and especially pansit (@o@) ok, right after graduation nelle and i did some crazy things(lmao) wait, that's after she jumps on me and screams cuz she graduated. we went to Anna's grad party where she had some belly dancers from her belly-dancing class like ed's party, haha. Mr. V's facial expressions were great. i slept over at nelle's house, jess came over and we looked in the year book and laughed our asses off at "the ppl lookin' a HOT MESS", lmao and tried to analyze our little encounters with some guys which we always do when we're all together. well, it nelle and i because jess was to busy lookin in the year book to find bad pictures. jess left, and then nelle and i talked sum more about how sum guys need "to get wit it". soon, i died on her mattress so she supposedly slept too. and next day was school evn tho yesterday (graduation day was no-school). i wanted to go just have ppl sign my yearbook but nelle said she was too sleepy and "ain't nobody gonna be there!" so i was like screw it and stayed on the mattress. jess supposedly went to school tho and calld us a million times on my phone but i didnt hear it all. while nelle, ignored it knowing its prbly jess, haha. jess came to the house, and i think jess went to work. i think we had lunch first tho. nelle came to my house so i can get ready for the rest of the parties including nelle's. we went back onbase and i waited for...grr nvrmind, im still reall irked about that. so i was at nelle's grad party(loved the food, cake and pansit!!), then monique smith's party and jason's party. all night, i walked around in my "pretty pregnant gypsy shirt" party-hopping. crazy mess. we had some drama with the person i will not mention, and ended up having nelle cussing at around midnight right outside sakura, which resulted in her acrylic and real nail on her middle finger breaking off and possibly, breaking her purse. i stayed at nelle's again instead of jess's. the next day was ilka and kamille's grad parties. i had work this day so i was hella tired but i still ate...how did you know? cake and pansit. nelle and i did much more after my work before the parties but its a long story. then, my mom yelled at me on the phone to come home NOW, so i did. I took some pansit home with me.

DECLARATION OF NERD-NESS

I, Monique H. Rose, declare myself to be more nerdy next school year.

that's all.

i had more to say but im tired. ooh, ive been working at the karaoke place that iw as talking about, HARD WORK man, HARD WORK. its pretty cool but im leaving there at the end of this month, and gonna work at a hair place because i was scouted for my bilingual skills. im going to the interview tonight. okay, well i really need to call nelle, o nvrmind she called.

Sunday, May 22, 2005

Sun, 22 May 2005 08:13:00 GMT

oh my lord, i havent written in a looOong time. haha. ive recently been giggling meaning-lessly thanks, to traufler. haha, her new nickname is OPP.

"...OPP...yeah, you know maaayyy~" haha, i cannot get over that.

it was crazy on friday, hectic day. i was having a good day until i broke my underwear like three times(i will not get into that) and some of the show choir members were being really irresponsible, i was EXTREMELY upset cuz i mean many of us never see our families and im never home but for the sake of the show choir i stayed on base after on a peaceful half-day(great for doing homework) but the schedule like brokedown and someone, ditched or forgot about the rehearal and school to go see the soccer boys in Yokota...grrr( jealousy... no im j/k!! not) and claimed they had a dental appointment when they were on the train when mr.phulmer(<--new nickname= GREGORY, lol) called them. PUHLEESE! and then like someone never even called to say they cant come. i just like burst in to tears cuz i was tired of staying out late for things other than family and when i get home my family would be eating dinner(minus my dad who gets home later than 10 every night) and id go upstairs and try to settle down and then id go downstairs and everyone would be asleep but they would serve and leave out dinner for me and dessert too. for me. the selfish, me. i felt awful. noones home when my sister gets home from school and she tries to take care of the chores at home when noone asks her too and she is eleven. get that?? im sixteen and what do i do?? the things i do for school and friends and things i dont do for my family...

Speaking of friends, after my great breakdown the people left, had a wonderful/absurd talk(the kind female students never have with a male teacher, actually any teacher for that matter, unless you were Gregory(<--Mr. Phil Ulmer), Janelle, Traufler, and Monique..you dont wanna know what we talked about...just ask Kenny, our fellow sailor who was there). it was very interesting. i cannot believe how close the three of us and Gregory are!! its crazy. he knows everyone's love life and everything and jokes about things that are like "*GASP*" ".....no, he just did not".

I love all of them.

I could tell any of them anything. that brings me to the other reason why im down.

nelle is graduating and leaving to college soon.

i cannot believe its happening. everytime the three of us get to that subject, we like to joke around about it and change subjects cause it hurts to take it seriously. i actually made nelle cry that same day cuz it was past 1900 and i was still onbase and we were trying to go out to eat but i was breaking like a million family rules and i was never home, so i was getting upset. i didnt want to leave and go home because these are the times i need to be with nelle before she leaves but these are the times i need to be with my family so i was hesitating. and like everyday i would stay onbase for nelle and traufler and i told them that. then, nelle(who just put her contacts in and was tearing because of it) started tearing even more and said "before, it was Jessica and Janelle but when you came in, it became Jessica, Janelle, and Monique. and on days you have to go home, its Jessica and Janelle again but i feel empty...cuz youre not there". jess and i thought nelle was tearing even more cuz of the contacts so we were like "awwWWW" and then nelle goes, "you know im crying, right?" and then we were like "no, OH , we thought you were crying cuz of the contacts!!" and then we laughed our usual laughs. if we didnt think she was crying cuz of the contacts, we probably would have ended up bawling. we did end up going out to Capricciosa like we always do until like 2200. we ate and ate and talked about the craziest things nelle did during her highschool years...man, im gonna follow her foot steps. LOL

i love Jessica and nelle, i really really do.

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Fun quotes to remember forever:

- at jessica's , hesitating whether to go home or not

jess: *organizing her clothes* " ... OPPaaaay!!...yea, you know maaaaaaay!!!...OPPaaaaaaay~...yea, you know maaayyy~!!"

me: *upset* "............" *starts laughing* "i couldnt even recognize what you were saying/singing until now!!"

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-walking to the O club while nelle and i follow jess acting like gangsters

janelle: *looking at jess's backside* "oooh...look at that!..shake that thang!"

jessica: stop~!

me: "dayum...make me wanna hit that!"

jessica: *turns around, mouth open, appalled* *keeps walking*

janelle: *laughs* "hot damn!"

me: "shes lookin stacked!!"

jessica: *turns around, looking even more appalled*

janelle & me: *laughing*

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- day of change of command, warming up in the green room w/gregory and jess

gregory: jessica, do you have stockings?

jess: no.

me: I have extra ones!!

gregory: sorry monique but noone fits a size -40 besides you..ooops!!

me: no you didn't. im not talking to you for awhile Mr. Ulmer!

gosh, i love these ppl.

update on what new things ive done to myself this week (lol):

3 weeks ago- my hair semi-permanently dyed raspberry

2 weeks ago- wearing 1500 yen glasses with cool trad red rims

this week - today, i permanently dyed my whole head reddish brown!!

the raspberry thing was freakin awesome, my gold highlights turned out really red and it was reeeeeely cool! the red-rimmed glasses were awesome too, ive always wanted red-rimmed ones like that! it was non-prescription. some said it looked sexy, some said smart, and some said "very bad girl teacher-like...the ones that have sex with students on overhead projectors"...i think i'll wear them tomorrow, lol haha, love audrey. the new hair color isnt super-obvious i dont think(i havent seen in sunlight yet) im just glad my roots arent black anymore.hmm...what should i do next week?

i love trying new things!!

oh my goodness! im about to get a job!! well, not yet. btw,

CONGRATULATIONS JESSICA FOR YOUR JOB AT THE O' CLUB~~!!

im supposed to meet with the workplace ppl this tuesday. i cant believe i really called them. well, its my favorite karaoke place, yes, that one, across from chuou station on the 6F of the Prime building! they pay pretty good and if i work there, i get 50% discount for when i go there, and its close to the station so i thought of applying. i like, went throught alot of magazines trying to find a job. i didnt want to work onbase cuz everyone does, and i thought id get paid more if i was offbase so yea. i havent spoken all-out formal Japanese and written Japanese(kanji and all...let alone my name which im applying as, which is _”ö‰ØŽq), in awhile so im a little nervous, but i think ill be alright! *sigh*

i hope I get to work there!!

and i also hope next week's concert goes well! and...i also hope many hot guys will move to my territory (yoko-ville) for next school year, hehe...

all i want is everything, how hard is that? XOXO~~